Random Thought...Unpredictable Mumbling

I have to start this post by first saying thank you to my friend Tara Pringle Jefferson . Tara is the creator of #HereWeGrow a National Self Care Retreat that happens yearly. She is the reason that I was in New Orleans for 5 days, thus the reason for this change that I feel. So, Tara, THANK YOU for your hard work, and commitment to giving black women a space to BE, and for reminding us the importance of taking care of ourselves.  I have so much to say about this weekend, but I am going to use a filter (some stuff is too personal to share) and I am going to try and keep this as short as possible. Preparation: Leading up to the retreat, I was all over the place. I just could not seem to get it together. Life was really hitting me hard. The week of, I had at least 2 breakdowns, there were a million things to do in order to get my children settled, and I was nervous about flying Spirit (which was actually ok). I wasn't able to take a deep breath until I to the airport. Maybe this

I am a mom. I am a single mom. I am a single divorced mom. I am a single divorced mom of two boys. A couple of days ago the boys and I were on our morning commute. We get to a red light and I noticed a mom and about five kids on the bus stop. I could tell they were all with her because of the way the girl’s hair was combed; they all had very similar braided hairstyles, and all the kids were shining like new money. One little girl looked very sad, so sad that it was noticeable. I told my boys, "I hate to see children look so sad", to which Jacob, my 8yr old replies, "Unless it's your own children". A little taken a back, I asked him why he would think I would want my children to be sad. He begin to describe times in which I have had to discipline him, all which he thought were unfair and unjust, with my most recent offense being not allowing him to bring a change of clothes for after school. I mean, he does not do my laundry, and two outfits a day ain'

Hello! I'm Lauren, and this is about the 3rd time I have tried my hand at blogging! I am back because I realize how therapeutic writing is for me, and because I want to get my thoughts out! (mainly this, LOL). I live a busy life, and so do my friends, so a lot of times when I have something to say, they may not be available. So, I figured, what better way to get my thoughts out than to share them with the world (or at least my extended circle who decides to read this)... There is no rhyme or reason, no real theme, and I will only post as I feel, so don't look for anything consistent. I just want a place to release. Some days it may be about motherhood, other about my career...I am sure you will hear about my dating woes from time to time as well. So, don't expect anything fancy over here, just my random thoughts and unpredictable mumbling's ... I hope you'll subscribe and join me on my journey through life. ~Lauren